When I discovered my LOVE

Sitting idle and being home alone for almost 4 hrs and with a bit of boredome filled office work lined up, I get sometime finally to myself and that time ends up making me realize what I have missed in past few days. By almighty's blessings and loads of love from people around I found out, I possess a above average life, with an Ok Ok job which gives me money to survive and even save in a city like bombay, a loving family and yes even a super adorable madly in love guy. Still there is something I miss badly and thats writing. Yes I don't know its a passion, or just something I enjoy doing, but while typing this I have a smile on my face. For almost 3 years, being moved from the halla gulla college life to a super serious IT office having changed 3 cities and having found my soulmate, being occupied in a long distance relationship, everything around just left me with no time for myself kind of an era. Whenever I found something I used to thing, yes will blog this out, but that never just happened. So today on a 'On-call' working weekend I decide to utilize my time and just expresses my love to writing. You know what me realize was, that this was something I was missing the most in 3 years, a kind of void somewhere, have read some great books in this past pinched me even more. Yes I still don't have any writing style, Yes I still can write an eye opening blog followed by a total bakkar blog, but my prioirity is just to express, for which the best way is to pen it down. So happie writing Geetika..!! Nd people hope someday I have the confidence and guts to post this. :P

Happiness generally explained as a sense of contentment, victory, being with family n friends...laughing about...but what about those not so conventional smiles that we have on our faces and the people and situations responsible are not always the above ones.. Happiness is when you expect it the least. Some things in life are actually the most soothing and healing ones.

When u are all alone and sad n stuck and suddenly something good happens. Suppose you are getting really tired or you just had a fight and suddenly u see a baby in front smiling in a second you will forget all your stress and strain. In a state of melancholy when suddenly a puppy comes wagging his tail and sniffs you u are not scared but u are relieved that someone is there and his innocence heals you. A very everyday example, many times we are alone on lonely roads and crowded buses...we all get scared but suddenly u see a person u never talked but know each other and u jump besides that scared, a relief that is undefined.

A sudden hi from a friend you have never seen from ages, that surprise n when the person reciprocates saying how could I have forgotten you. Unexpected calls, thank you and sorries. When in a bus of a cafe you see a group of crazy friends n suddenly you are reminded of your best pals. Some things in life are just so unexpected. Suddenly when you hear your favourite track on radio or from somewhere around.

But these are all human things. What about nature. Ever seen the sky above above and observed the moon...it does make your face smile. Standing in the rains and welcoming it...incomparable...

There are some things in life that bring your innocence back, wake up the child in you, make you forget every ill and just leave with the most beautiful smile. Think about them n cherish them..

jungle camps...!!!

I recently that is like the end of December got to experience a Jungle camp at Delawadi near Bhopal. That doesn't mean I went hunting for tigers but the very ambiance there the birds singing, monkeys making those noises, the some kind of unidentifiable sounds were noteworthy. I have always been a girl who was attracted to nature and solace. So I really enjoyed. I went there with My mum dad and his school friends. So technically I was the only kid there, If you agree calling me a kid.




It started with a ride In my favorite scorpio , on a highway, through a village and then amongst the forest and mountains. The best part of the place was how it was developed into a camp. I really loved those old huge trees around, and those semi rotten net like leaves. I got to see a well. And going into the forest, the noise your shoes make on stepping over on leaves. And they even had shown me an old banyan tree, and described how that that also grown old.

Monkeys and there whole small and happy family traversing across the trees. Guess what It did remind me of Edward and twilight, not that I am comparing Edward with monkey just the whole jungle thing. N the best part No network No phone calls., what peace.
Well the trip was small but sitting and chit chatting, listening to elderly experiences, seeing 55 year olds behaving like kids, where one even tried to climb a tree. Forgetting everything and enjoying whats in and around. The pics say a lot, so I'll shut my mouth and end my post here. But will say a must have experience.

Chukkk chukk rail gaadi...

Weird tittle naa....but it says...what I am writing about. 4 yrs in hostel..n so many train journeys. Its like it has become an integral part of life. 4 years and countless journeys and every time something special and at times weird also. Good and bad all type of encounters but all end as an experience. Will just include some evident ones...

My 1st experience of traveling alone. The first time I was going home after coming here in Noida. Wow it felt great. How much I had missed home in that span of 20 days. I had a bunch of friends and a crazy seniour. Our train was delayed and reached at 11 at night at nzm. Humid filled travel, thrist, but it alll went unnoticed with that excitement of going home. N when finally I saw mum dad...n that smile on their face. After that many times...same 700 kms route from Nizzamudin to Bhopal. Many trains and many people.
But before it get too engrossed in telling my own experiences It would like to say something for IRCTC and Indian railways. Its undoubtedly worlds largest and most convenient. It is actually connecting people happily and at very low sum. Lalu jii...and now Mumta jii smile on that..:)
Yaa coming back to me. You know I have even played guitar, sorry just listened, couldn't play because of my long nails. And also chit chatted all night. It once happened when I was travelling with my childhood friend and we chatted the whole night, slept at 3. I was in the middle berth and the person on lower was planning to throw me off the berth in the morning, Uncles..huhhh...
You the best part is when you are at the station and you see Bhopal express, waiting for you. And you know the journey has begun. N yaa getting down at some station and sipping into "Chaii" and kurkure. The chills that you feel traveling in the sleeper, the rain drops that touch your face and leave a smile. The night outside and specially the moon that enlightens the chambal ranges, the morning sunshine that mesmerizes you by its beauty complied with nature. N the feeling of finally reaching home and seeing your loved ones at the station. But you know its totally the other way when you return back. Specially in the first two years of college. Then you see no moon...no nature. All you feel is some kind of heaviness that you have to go back. At times tears also roll down. Now you are happy and sad both ways. But then 2 years from today.

And yes my blog is incomplete without mentioning "n" no of times I have traveled with waiting, shared berth with a friend, sat the whole 12 hours, and yes faced a train accident, minor one, still accident is an accident. N people specially guys that I have flirted with or who have flirted with me, because you just need some entertainment. I have grown up I now travel with a confirm AC ticket but trust me the fun of traveling is in sleeper class and when its like inoculated with people. U see India, many people many experiences.

No network coverage :);

No network coverage...zero connectivity...blank mobile phone screens... something we people come across multiple times. Most common when we are traveling, camping etc. The very general reaction when we see a screen showing no network is "ohh shitt...how when i make calls..i have something important to communicate".

Why I am writing such a blog, simple recently I was on a jungle camp when I realized there was no network coverage. At first I felt sad, agonized, n worried how will I contact people,what if somebody wants to communicate something important. But slowly as the day passed I was rather happy and contended. I had no bsnl n TD adds buzzing, I was free from any worries whatsoever, I wasnt roaming here n there to make any calls. Life for those few hours was a lot more peaceful and simple. That is when I thought about wrinting about this not so popular and unconventional thing.
I am not here to debate that technology and mobiles and internet are a blessing, I know they are and even I can exist some hours without them but I really believe a few hours without them are just more relaxing than any other spa treatment or meditation.
"Lage raho munnabhai" a very famous and acclaimed bollywood flick had its lead actress saying this...that in today's decade we have time and net to stay in touch with everyone in this world,but we are not even aware of our neighbor's name. We have time to make a call every hour asking our gf/bf "baby you had your food naa" but we are so busy to call our maa and ask "how is she doing". Thats the agony technology beholds.
All I wanted to communicate was that learn to live happily, don't be too technology dependent, our grandparents had no mobile phones and definitely lead a healthier and happier life. turn off your phones for some time. Forget the fear that something bad might happen...it will reach you. Forget that somebody must be trying to contact you, the life on planet earth is not ending, you will get to talk. Get off such addictions. Live the simpler life. Go around chat with people around, walk, laugh. take time out people for yourselves just you.

NoIDa-NcR

Hello...first thing..this is no wikipedia that is conveying the altitudes and geographical and other details about this city. Its just how I perceive this city, what this place has given and taken from me.4 yrs back I moved out of the small city "Bhopal" to the the city of dreams,passion,crazy people delhi. Well I resided in the in campus hostel in Noida. Still I did get to taste the capital and life people had here. The most important and significant thing this place teaches you is independence. Independence to move around freely, to think without any firewalls, to do what you want to, what makes you happy. This place taught me that not everyone is a pure soul, its high time learn to recognize and deal accordingly with people.

What I love the most about this place is that its just not you who is running, running the race of professional excellence, competition, its just not you who has having her ass on fire, every face is.
When at times I feel low and I look around every face is wearing a fake smile hiding things that you never even imagined they suffered from. Well I love the place for its undying karizma since ages, a perfect blend of history and future. I have seen Delhi changing. I do love the concrete jungles, the skyscrapers, the malls. But what I love about this place is the Delhi Metro, the DMRC. Its just not that it makes reach every hook and corner of the city conveniently, its the chance it gives me to observe everytime I travel. Look around you will find uncles talking about there experiences,telling what Delhi was when they moved in. You will find aunties discussing the growing onion and arhar daal rates. You will find love at first sights happening. A crazy gang of friends pulling each others legs. Thats where You see Delhi right infront your eyes.
Well yes I do love the food, the gol gappas, the allo ke parathe, momos, chai,chaat everything cooked n selled on the streets, specially at places like chandani chauk. N the colours of culture.
Every monument that holds a story makes Delhi rich. N so is with Noida. I dont like the city much because being too much of a concrete jungle, n shooping malls. I miss some natural things here. I wish Noida was a lot more original and safe.
But these were the technical details. Well yaa one more thing I met a marathi speaking sardaar here. Not every where no find such cases but India and that too delhi. I love to roam around alone in this place, explore the new dimensions, forgetting all that troubles me. I love this place because it gave me freedom. I met many new people. It gave me experiences that made me grow. I actually grew into a girl from a dumb teen when I came here. N yaa it taught me how to bargain. N to not to forget the "gallis"you learn here, some special addons to your boring vocabulary. I did loose my innocence, I turned into a clever and smart gal, good and bad. I do miss that cute innocence. But to survive in this at times ruthless place You become that way. NCR is incomplete without mentioning the night life here. But sorry I have no such experience to share.
Well this place teaches you, slaps you, makes you fall and helps you to get up. It does take away some special parts in you, but for better. These 4 yrs were the best of my life, and a lot of the credit goes to the place that accepted me and loved me. "Apnapan" thats what I feel here.
P.S.- It did give me precious friends and the love of my life :)

a day i m afraid of..

I knw I have a really absurd title 2 my blog dis tym....it is lik..2012..whr d world will end..or the marriage day blaa...bllaa anyways...its not...u know right from the time I was a kid...I had multiple phycological n maddness related disroders....d most prominent amongst them r ..thonking too much n imagining too much...specially in the future tense....dis blog is a result of that..
I have another transition phase waiting for me....the transition of a student to an employee...euuu...ryt ...dnt wrry I knw no body is intrested in reading about this..soon...i'll say a final adieu to my college...college is just not a building ...an institute ....from where I earned a B.Tech degree..it is a lot more....n finally i'll leave it...4 yrs of togetherness with evrybit of this place..at times...when I am hell fokat n senti...i do imagine...what will be my last day here like....who all will be there ...to say a final goodbye....my freinds..my specialone....will they alll b dere..i'll be packing my bags...wid tears i knw...evrytym i go back home...i knw its jus for some days...n i'll be back soon...this time dere won't be any return journeys....no counting of days...nothing....no1 will say now..."arrey fir se cafe ke khaana...10 dinn main aadat bigad gayi...line main laga naii jaa raha"....the final godbyee to room no.607c...a room i'll always cherish...coz i never learnt soo much abt myself...lik the way I did here..my pals I knw dey all will b dere..i know we all will be making promises of meeting soon....but...and den i'll leave the campus...
Things evolve...evryone one goes through it...I knw a whole new world will be waiting for me....a new life..new place...new home...all i want be b constant and stable in this part is...my friends...dese idiotic ppl who have been jus more than frnz to me...I still have goosebumps..when i think...when will v be able to meet.....convocation..den....den when....evrybdy will be engrosed in dere lives....fonecalls....that might soon become occasional....or need based...n wht about the campus...d momos...paani puri...paagalpan....whn will those times come.....
I know its basefull...its an invitation to nostalgia...but just think for a minute...about ur last day in collge..r u stll in touch wid dem...who der with u ...at tht tym....n if u stll haven't had this moment in your life....imagine like I did..imagine ...urself packing bags...locking up ur room...a car waiting to be loaded with those n no of bags....tht carry all those stupid memories...pieces of papers...having all ur names....papers...whrd person u loved wrote something...an ambience filled with emotions...n friend who u knw will miss u d most...a pal...who will stll try n make u laugh n say "chalo peecha choota"....n finally u depart from the campus...
I have chills already...i knw dis day will come soon....I wish it does turn out to be the best day of my college life...:)